you are so far away,

and to think u was so close,

your image is going so blury

now i cant even see u,

now ur in heaven,

and im down here all alone,

with noone to grab,

noone to hold close,

trying to remember all those wonderful memmories,

that we had shared,

to think we will never relive those moments

and to think u jus left me behind,

waiting for u,

waiting for u to come back

to say ur final goodbye,

to kiss me on the cheek

and to tell me it is alrite,

or to tell me that i can live my life agian,

the same as it usta be

and to say that u are happy where u went,

i wish i was in front of that train,

or atleast there to pull u away,

it seems just lyke yesterday,

i saw it cumming,

i didn't do a thang,

didn't even move an inch

or atleast tell you to get outta the way

i jus stood there,

stood there ,and watched it cum closer,

while u was standing there,

with ur headphones blaren,

you wasn't paying any attention anyway,

but i take all the blame,

for all the innoscents,

to think that i accually knew it was there,

to think that i accually could of saved ur life,

i jus wish u was here,

so i could hold u tight,

to say i luv u one last time,

but to think that it will never happen,

jus makes me so sad inside,

and to think all i wanted,

 was to spend the rest of muh life with u,

but now i can't,

and i thank muh stupidity for that,

and now all i can say is,

and keep saying is,

i want you here ,

rite next to me,

i want to tell u,i luv u one last tyme,

and i miss you with all of muh heart...... 2/20/05